Phata dhol (online story)

 written updates -12/08/2020

Well, I am quite confused from where to start this. Lets start from my introduction .Hii, my name is “Ahan” I am a really shy or we can say introvert person. I don’t possess the huner of being chatty to those whom I don’t have the foggiest idea or know a little bit. Even I talk very less with my classmates, because I don’t know from where to start the conversation, what to say. I generally talk to them about the subjects matter related to our studies. There is one secret inside me which I have not unveil/disclose with any one till now.I have two girlfriends well its seems, looks a big joke of day, a year or even my life.Thats why I didn’t disclose it with anyone. My first girlfriend is my own voice. I love singing from the day one when I begin seeing this world  from my eyes.Mom always says to me that I was quite naughty when I was born and starts yelling everytime.And the one thing which can stop my Sobbing was just and just songs.Especially melody songs. And my second girlfriend is “sana”, but with this the one fact is that I am not his boyfriend.She is quite tall, pretty.I love her so very much that I cant express in words. Till now, I don’t even try to show her that she is something for me. She is my classmate.I talk to her but generally about studies. I don’t know what to say what to not other than this. But she talk too much in the class.

She is just opposite of mine.She even try to joke with me and I was tooooooo happy when she talk to me.I cant control my happiness inside me. Its like my whole day will now gone on laughter. Sometimes I even feel that she also loves me however then i feel might be i am off-base.

Hey ahan !! pass me the notes please I think I have to revise it once more…… (Vivek)

Oh! I forgot to introduce this character, He is vivek one and only friend of mine in the class he understands me very well he is acquainted with my one girlfriend even.My voice, My love for singing.

Ahan:-You have perused it twice times previously.If its not too much trouble ,Please let me read it.

Vivek:- Ahan, you know right? Even after that you are making fun of me.This test is especially for me, because I fail in the last test and this is not because I didn’t study this is because you are singing even in the test and I said stop otherwise sir will caught you and punish you and suddenly sir saw me and think of that I was asking for your help in the test and he scolded me in the class in front of everyone and you were laughing. You think I didn’t saw you, You are wrong my friend….

Ahan:- I know he even almost rang a bell to your mom. But you stop him and plead to him that next time if you done any mistake then you wont stop him to call to your mom.Thank you vivi you are the only one in the whole class who understood me very much.

Vivek:- We are friends yar. This is not too big thing and I know if sir scold you instead of me you just start crying because I know you that you are very emotional. And I cant see you crying.

Ahan:- Awwwww. Vivi you know what, when i will become a singer you know i will make you my manager, because you know I cant bear the separation from you of anything even my work. 

Vivek :- oh boyeee!! Come on!  Manager... me...... No chance.Mom always scold me, for not managing the cupboard, so managing job is not going to work for me and you too.I will become a business-man, and i am going to sponsor your song in near future. .Look who is coming…..Sana. And also ravi, he is always found round-around sana. I don’t know why but I hate him for this.

Ahan:- Why you hate him.He is so intelligent, and for sana she I don’t feel possess any feeling for him.She is simply very talkative.Thats it.

(That is the one reason I don’t share my feeling with my closest friend.Because I know he also love her inside. I don’t know what to do.I don’t want to break his heart by telling him about my feeling and what about the love which growing inside me day by day).I don’t know…..

Vivek:- What you said you don’t know. What??? Tell me ??

Ahan:- Nothing.

Classes are over. Vivi and me are going to home……

Ahan:-Mom I came home.

Mom:- Wash your hands? I will put the food on the dining table.

Ahan:- OK, mom

I sit at the dining table.

Mom:- How was your test?

Ahan:- It was tough but i know I will pass.

Mom:- Ahan, Cant you think above passing marks. Is it important to have carrying the passing marks only.Everytime you just focus on one thing your singing. It is good for enjoyment, but it cant be your future.You can make your future only by doing study..

Ahan:- Why mom? Can I not become a singer.

Mom:- You know the truth already.Dont you.

Ahan:- You always discourage me. I don’t want to talk to you…

Mom:- Ahan, Don’t get me wrong beta, I just want to see you having a good job. Your father is  doing a private job. And he is trying his best to fulfill all of our desires. We don’t want that whatever money cuts we are suffering. You also got through this.

Ahan:- I don’t want to talk to you atleast as of now…Just go….

(I know mom loves me a lot, she always thinks of my happiness but I don’t know the  reason behind my frustration inside me which always makes me harsh.Is i am doing something wrong to have a dream? ?.I  realize my voice is slightly below average to turn into a singer..Even my classmates calls my voice is like a “phata-Dhol” and I don’t utter any words in front of them, I know my mom wants me to have all the happiness in my life.But, I don’t know why I am becoming so angry..I know my fault but I don’t possess the dare to accept it. What to do.)

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